Blessed love and oneness to everyone!!! the title is fitting doan?? LOL. You haven't seen me write anything in a VERY LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGG time; even got comments saying so lol. Well, I'm here today to serve up some life.
I'm in Jamaica right now (the most wonderful and beautiful place on earth; don't hate) and I tend to get a lot of inner thoughts going or sorted through while I am here and away from the busy-ness of my life. I have enjoyed the past few days. I was delayed in getting here, thank you Air Jamaica which is now Caribbean Airlines, and I had a not so great day on Tuesday. But nevertheless, I have taken in the beauty of my country and the awesomeness of friends. My dad looks great! I haven't seen him in two years. (that story will come in a blog soon)
But back to my thoughts. I've been in a weird place lately. I feel unsatisfied where I am; there's more to go but I don't know how to get there. I'm doing a dance program that requires Biblical studies and in reading and studying I've found comfort in some of the Old Testament characters. The two I've been comforted by are David and Gideon. David's life, the beginning anyway before he became king, showed me some things.
First, that he was doing him when he was called. Out in the fields minding his sheep, not much to everyone else but obviously much to God who saw him fit to be anointed as king. The second thing I saw though was that he didn't become king right away. He went through many things before stepping into the position he was anointed for. I believe he learned and gained much knowledge that would help him in his role and develop him personally.
Gideon was out "doing him" also when the angel appeared to him. He had only heard of who the Lord was but never witnessed Him for himself. His heart was right which is why I believe he was chosen to lead Israel into victory. He was afraid and consulted the Lord in each fearful situation. But once the Lord gave him all he needed he moved forward with confidence.
How does this relate to me? I'm fearful and asking God for the directions, desiring all that I need so I can move forward with confidence. I also understand that I have not yet stepped into my full "anointing" and am still going through lessons that will better me as a person and equip me for my call.
I write this to encourage you that there will be those moments that you don't feel God, may not hear Him, may not be confident in where you are going.....but do not despair. And don't get overly religious and try to use a formula to get things going in your life again. God isn't limited by our thoughts or ways. Tell Him all of what you are going through, what you're thinking about, what you struggle with and allow Him to be the BIG GOD that He is and "do HIM!" Let Him meet you where you are as you cry out to Him in His sovereignty.
He loves us and is concerned with us. Let Him love you, console you, comfort you, teach you, be Daddy to you and everything else you need.
Blessings til next time!
